Destination Unknown

I don't know how to start this.
And I certainly don't know how to end it..

I say yes. Over and Over.
Opening my insides to brutal mutilation.
An attack that cannot be stopped.
It is inevitable that I will be cast aside.

I know it's coming, its almost worse than being surprised.
Frustration devours me.
Saying no is harder than thought.

It feels so right, so why am I so wrong?

You're bound to me, but the ties are thin.
You are being pulled in more than one direction.
Stop listening to your reflection.
How can I help with the correction?

Do I have to say this?
So long, Goodbye..
It hurts my stomach just to write it.

Push you aside and I will fall.
But I get back up. I won't crawl.
Am I prepared?
Why am I scared?

You trapped yourself in your own little way.
Your games, I always have to play.
I feel fine when I take advantage.
Our nights, I don't want them to end.